One of those kind of days...

Sometimes I feel like I'm trying too hard to be myself. If that makes any sense... but, like, I'll say something, or do something, and then realize I sounded too eager, or excited, or angry, or just like I care too much. And I get too fixated on a person or thing. I know this is really annoying because that person/thing is then in almost every conversation I have. I have a relative whose number one way of making me feel like crap is outwardly stating in front of the rest of the family how little I care about everything. I do care. A lot. About nearly everything. I just don't want to always show it, because a lot of times, I'm terrified of looking like an idiot because even if she's not perfect, she's a lot closer than I am.
I get that sometimes I point out the obvious, and make myself seem really... well, dumb, but if I'm thinking it, I need to say it. This gets me in trouble a lot. Or I go kind of blank. This makes people think I'm even weirder than I already am...
So, Mibba, what do you think?
Should I learn to keep my mouth shut(and my fingers off the keyboard?)
Or should I always express what I'm feeling(within reason)?

Or was this journal a total waste of your time?
It's just one of those days...