To whom it may concern.

I have come to this realization. This is making my world crash down around me. I feel like there is nothing left of me... I feel like he has taken the good berried deep inside me out.. I am cry as write this. I love him more then he will ever know. He is my best friend and i know he feels the same way but won't do anything about it because i am fat. Why am i so stupid to believe that life would actually give me the one thing i want more than anything else. Why would i let myself get just that tiny little hope back in my heart and now having ripped apart. I hate myself and want to die so bad. I just wanna slit my wrist and get it all fucking over with. He stole a note from me the other day. He said he won't ever read it unless i say he can. That note was a suicide letter to him in case i ever do it. I think tomorrow i'm going to tell him to read it. I just can't take being friends while i see him everyday wishing he would hold me in his arms and say those 3 words to save my life. But that won't ever happen...