tonight's the night

It's funny, how you can physically be away from someone but they never really leave your heart.

I don't think I've ever been further from her than I am now. She's lost somewhere on the edge, and I'm just sitting here in this veritable lake of guilt. I need her so badly. I wish she could see that before this happened. It's not her fault - I did literally the worst possible job of showing it. I wasn't there for her, I wasn't there for her then and I'm not there for her now.

I know we're not together anymore, and we weren't, long before I made my mistake. But it doesn't matter what happens to either of the two of us for the rest of our lives, we'll always have had that connection. We'll always be part of the patchwork of each other's hearts, no matter how far apart we are.

I want her to be OK. I need her to be OK. It's not just for me, either; there are so many people who need her, who are hanging on to all she has left tonight.

Just step back from the precipice please, darling. Just give us a little more time. All of us.

We love you so much.