Today

Today, i was walking down the hall with Jake and my school counceler walked up to me. I havn't talked to her since she found out i got "messed up" at a party and called my parents, which yes was stupid but it's all good now. Well i was going to talk to her about what happened to me a few months ago, and take the chance of everything that might happen, and hoping it will clear my mind. Let all the bad dreams and memories i don't want to remember go away... To be honest i "hurt" my self because i found out it happened to another girl, and my friend who said i should tell, told me if i didn't then it would keep happening, that i was a cowerd. When it never happened to him. He doesn't know what i went through. It made me cry, it made me remember. It plays like a movie in my head. Over, and over. I don't know if i could take this as much as i already have. i don't know. Things just aren't right anymore.