Understand

One thing you need to know, just because i need help doesnt mean im gunna go get it. I dont trust people. I wont tell. Ive thought about it. Its not what i want. I appreciate the comments on getting help. But i just dont want it. I dont enjoy being this way but i will not go back to the hospital or be put in a crazy place. Im holding on to my last piece of sanity, and hopefully thats enough. I dont mean to come off wrong. I just wanna do this on my own even if i know im going to fail.