Memories can't fade away

Everytime I try to deal with it, it seems to be harder. The heartache never comes to an end, missing you it's the easiest feeling , still needing you hits me how do you overcome a pain like that? When you've lost one of the most wonderful human beings in the world?

I'm usually cold, but I cannot ignore this and now 4 days away of what it should be your 31st birthday I have no idea if I should make you a birthday card or just ignore it... I can't ignore it I miss you so much Jimbo ! I really do. I know I have to be strong but I'm sick of being strong. I know I'll find my was but I will always miss you and love you no matter what every single day. I don't care what people think the fact they don't understand that's... that's their problem not mine. I just wish you where here but I understand you are right up in heaven in a better place, knowing that no one can hurt you anymore it's what keeps me alive,