Happy Birthday Dad

Happy Birthday Dad. You abusive, cheating, selfish fuck. I hope it was the loneliest fucking birthday you've ever had seeing as it was the first birthday you've had with both your parents dead. I hope the bitch you broke apart our family for and beat me over forgot as well.

I miss you dad, I hope you're not as lonely as I am. I wonder if you remember our marathon games of age of empires or our bike rides. I wonder what you'd say if you knew Grandad was dying? Would you cry? Would you even care?

FUCK YOU DAD. Do you remember how i was good at everything? Do you remember how i was the best in my class? Within a fucking year i dropped to near the bottom of my year. A couple of years later when i passed year 12 I cried when i only passed with an average grade. Now 4 years later i sit in my room not going to uni planning out suicide. Helium bags seem all the rage these days, I'm not sure I'd do a very good job of cutting my wrists. The trick is never to have a suicide attempt I think, just a suicide. I wonder if you'd come to the funeral? I wonder if you'd even know?

Happy Birthday Dad