There are just a lot of things running through my head right now.

When I was with you, I felt like I was a better person; I felt happier, less alone...less lonely. You made me so happy. You taught me what that felt like, happiness, and then...what it felt like to lose it. You made me happier than anyone ever has, and I want you to know that I miss that - I miss you. And I hate myself more than you ever could, because I know that if I had been enough for you, you wouldn't have even wanted to leave. I do want someone, need someone; you're right - but you were everything I ever wanted. And you still get thought of everyday, just not in a good way.