"fun. at their worst is better than a lot of bands at their best" [full of scattered thoughts :-)]

so, fun. has sort of made living easier. they make me remember how happy feels, they make me remember how it feels to have someone to strive for. they challenge me to challenge myself, to remind myself not to be like mom and not to be like dad, but to be myself and grow and flourish in only the ways that i know how to. it’s okay to be sad, so long as it doesn’t devour me.

from aim and ignite, barlights and be calm and the gambler and i wanna be the one and at least i’m not as sad and walking the dog and take your time and light a roman candle all strike a cord. barlights is just really uplifting for some reason, it makes me smile and i can sing along to it and it’s guaranteed to bring me into a better mood. be calm reminds me that i need to take a break sometimes, that i don’t have to push myself to the bone to be something i’m not. the gambler reminds me not to search for love, that it’ll come and that i need to let it flourish, not force it like mum and dad did. i wanna be the one goes with light a roman candle. at least i’m not as sad makes me laugh when i’m upset for some reason, makes me grin and just relax and feel better. walking the dog- if you could see me, whoever i am- you know it’s not like the movies, it’s not all skin and bones. so come on, come one come all… i will not let you go! - idk it makes it harder to succumb to my ED because i can fight it and i can win and i know. take your time is just a perfect song- my parents will be here for me when i come back from running from my problems. light a roman candle is the relationship i want.

some nights? carry on, it gets better, some nights/intro, all alone, why am i the one, all alright, one foot, stars, out on the town, we are young. literally the entire album. carry on and be calm go hand in hand, why am i the one and i wanna be the one go hand in hand, it gets better just reminds me that shit isn’t always going to suck and that with just a bit of effort to keep going, well, you know the rest of that statement. all alone and all alright are just perfect and make me grin and i saw them acoustic and loud and idk they make me feel better in ways i can’t explain, or they inspire me, or just a thosuand things at once. one foot like it gets better, makes me thrive. stars is just adorable. out on the town… how can anyone not love it? it’s just love and pure love and just pure wonder and wonderful and just sigh. and we are young, christ. i’m a kid, but i know later on, it’s going to remind me that i just need to have fun, that i need to relax with my friends and say fuck it all once in a while, that i need to remember that i’m young at heart and i can deal with growing up.

fun. live? i’ve seen them three times, and they interact with the crowd in the single best possible way. they’re not a pushy crowd, they’re dancey and funny and you can’t help but to grin when you lisetn to them. nate puts on this brilliant show, interacts with jack and andrew and will and nattie and emily through every second- fun at their worst is better than a lot of bands at their best, someone tweeted once. and it’s true. nate was ill the times i saw him, and he still just threw on the most perfect show i’ve ever seen.

and the boys are all the sweetest guys you’ll ever meet. nate encouraged me to keep writing, andrew just makes you feel entirely comfortable, jack is just sort of quiet but you know that he’s eloquent, that he’s someone you want to know, and from their touring counterparts, i’ve met emily and will and both of them are extraordinarily kind. one day i’ll meet nate harold, i know, because there’s simply no way that i won’t with how many times i plan to see them. here’s hoping that they’re at backyard barbeque like i’m predicting, eh?