Hopeless romantic? Yeah, but more like hopless idiot. :[

Uhg. Its harddddd getting over your first love. And they way it ended? Just uhg. It was 4 months ago, but I still get so depressed sometimes. I still love him. So fricken much. So I wrote a couple of poems today. I'd like you guys to go read them. The first I posted today is called 'I'm A Liar In Love' and the second is 'And It Hurts'. Writing helps me deal with my emotions.

And as for the guy who gave me the rose? My best friends brother who I was all excited about at first? Well, we're not gonna become anything. No epic romances. We went on two dates,, an we had fun, but there's just no...Chemistry, you know? He nice, and funny, just not for me. Is it so wrong that I wanna feel, i dunno, excited about the person I date? I wanna feel sparks, maybe some butterflies. And My ex tells me that I'm being too picky. That I shouldn't look for the feeling I got when i first started dating him, but why the hell not? Why can't I be attracted to someone and want to see them and be excited about dates?