My feelings. </3

Who would care if I died?

Sometimes I wonder.

I'm already half dead anyway...

I feel dead, or like dying.
Depressed, sad, sometimes too sad to function.
Staring into nothingness, my mind sometimes a void, sometimes a rotten hole filled with 'what ifs' and 'whys'.

Crying without even realizing it until someone else tells me.
Wanting to see blood.
My own blood.
Wanting to just crawl under a rock and disappear
Not being alive enough to actually smile.
A real smile, anyway.
Not being aware of my surroundings.
Wanting to just give up.
Give up on everything.

Looking into the mirror and not seeing the light that used to be in my eyes.

Not seeing the life that used to be in my eyes.

I just...

I don't want to be alive.

I feel crushed.