Okay, wanting some advice. My life, from the outside would seem pretty good, I have a "nice" family, genuinely good friends and my grades and marks have always been good and I'm a 'hard worker'.
But I have lots of personal problems, one, is an eating problem that only a few of my friends know about, none of my family do, not even my sister, and I tell her everything.
When I first went to school, everything was normal, I used to eat but one day I just found myself not wanting to, I thought it was nothing but it continued, now it's at the point where even if I'm hungry I will continue to only eat around the outside of an apple (and that's only because I have to, if it was up to me I wouldn't bother)
But when I get home my mum always gives me LOADS to eat, I talked to her about it the other day and said I just couldn't eat all of what she gives me and could she downsize it a bit. She did a bit but it's still a lot, and whenever I eat it it makes me feel ill, it makes me feel angry with myself and I hate it, I hate eating a large amount.
I would ask my mum to downsize it even more but she's very VERY controlling and she'd get suspicious and start asking questions, she cannot find out about my eating problems.
I also hate eating in front of people, I feel like a pig and if I make a mess I feel disgusting. But I'm HONESTLY not underweight, I'm slightly overweight, and that's not just my evaluation of myself, I really am.
I don't know what to do any more, if anyone can give me advice, or tell me what's wrong with me I'd be really glad of the help.