my whiny rant about my life

blehh im sorry but im gonna whine to you
i end up having to work on all my off days and i love mr.cary and ms.kay alot so i cant say no when she needs help with him but i have to not to certain things like take pills to relax anymore because i cant be under the influence just in case she needs me and i have to cancel plans and not get to do fun things because i need to be nearby my house and dressed in a way i can be around them and my mom doesnt agree to take me certain places alot of the times and by the time i might could talk her into it im way too upset, tired and stressed to do them and its just awful and frusterating and i've had to miss out on things n not do fun stuff cuz of family members health problems i had to take care of them like all my life and not get to do stuff and had to miss out on so much and otber reasons and it just keeps happening over and over again and its just upsetting and frusterating and i have to use all my energy helping out so when i have free time anymore to do nearby mildly fun stuff im weak and cant really have fun at all and its also really hard watching mr.cary go downhill because i've had to lose so many people and its just upsetting and takes a major toll on me