Letting Go=Mission Impossible.

I've done so well with not talking to him. But last night he texted me asking me to please talk to him. I said he's better off. But of course that led to more which led to an argument which also led to me feeling confused with how I feel and wanting to rip my hair out.

He has her. Why should he need me? Why should I need him? I don't.
I told him he needs to concentrate on her.
Because supposedly she's pregnant. But of course he didn't see the test and i'm pretty sure she's lying..
Thats the only thing that still hurts to think about...

I used to be so sure about him. And I really wanted kids with him someday. How stupid right?
How naive and cliche. But I really thought. Anyways.

I don't think i'll have kids anymore. I don't know. If I can hardly even take care of myself I don't want to screw anyone else up you know?