Bucket list, I wish I could/have, many thing that I have on my mind.

First of I'm getting tired to feel quite shitty in my house.
No matter what I do someone tell me that I'm stupid and inresponsible every time someone say that to me I feel worthless that I wish I could run away from where I live and find a new life sadly what I dream of runaway is totally a fearytale since there is no place to stay sadly but at least I have to wait like at least 1-2 year so I can go to a college and start a new life in there. I always wish and dream to be pretty since I see my self quite ugly for many reason 1. I look like a fucking whale doesn't matter what I do owned up looking like a goddam whale. 2. I'm starring to dislike my own hair color since my hair is blonde and I'm getting tired and sick about the stereotype of blonde dumb. 3. I wish I was smart enough and I have all my grades straight A most my group have straight A and I'm the only one who have A,B,C and D (the only D that I have is science). And 5. I wish I was short like at least 5'3 sadly I'm 5'6 (buck list) I wish I could meet Mat Smith from doctor who, my chemical romance, kill Hannah, black veil bride, Avenged Sevenfold and other people and artist I wish I could meet I want to travel the world learn new stuff meet people around the world and become friend with them being a photographer to Audrey Kitching I just love her she inspire me reunited my long lost cousin and stalk him when he is on tuor I feel quite lucky about of my cousin I wish I could help someone who have a drug addiction and last but not least live in new York and London