what if

you know when your heart and chest get so tight and theres so much pressure you feel like you cant breathe and you cant stop thinking that maybe if you weren't like how you are now than maybe your parents would be together, you still speak to you father, your goddamn twin doesn't hate you and your mother favour the other child. and your brother and mums boyfriend call you names and hurt you while you dont do anything back so you dont hurt them or upset your mother more. so you sit here struggling to breathe and yer needed to get that out, soz