Sunday, February 19,2012

Today was a much better day. My mom and I had a late night talk. I said more of what I was feeling than what I wanted to. But she had to know what I was feeling. We both said things we needed to hear. I don't know how long it is going to last, but right now, it feels good. She still doesn't believe that one of my closest friends (Z) "was" a junkie. I believe him, though some of his story doesn't make sense. I guess I have blind faith in people. My mom doesn't know why I believe him so much and I don't know either. Maybe I believe him for the drama. Maybe my mind is tricking me into thinking I trust him. I trust my mother, I always have, but it is really hard to choose a side on this. I wish I had someone who was in the position as me so they could tell me what to do. I can't go to anyone about this and My mom doesn't believe me. I can't go to Z with my doubts because he may not trust me again or a bad situation might occur. I'm stuck. I guess there is always a price to pay about knowing things. I need a sign from anyone or anything to tell me what to do about this situation. I need help, DESPERATELY!!!

-Victoria M.