what a night/morning. whatever

I didn’t take my medicine. If I do I won’t have enough. I can’t get my refill until Tuesday. This is my first time not being on it in a while.

I tried to sleep but I can’t. I’m manic, I’m paranoid, I’m anxious. I see stupid things in my head, I hear things to loudly in silence. I had a nightmare. I can hear myself think. My head is pounding hard and there’s a pounding in my chest. this is a nightmare I can’t wake up from.

my cat won’t stop making noises………

“I’ve said it one I’ve said it twice. I’ve said it a thousand fucking times. That i’m okay, that i’m fine. That it’s all just in my mind. But this has got the best of me i can’t seem to sleep.”