Not even surprising...

So I had two finals yesterday. My first one was in Family. I thought I did okay on it, I actually thought I did pretty well. I got it back today in my mailbox...I failed. I got a freaking 64%. What a moron. What idiot gets a freaking 64% on a test that is mostly just matching things!

I studied, I really did. I studied for hours. I thought I had most of the answers right. I guessed on some but...for everything else I thought I did okay. *sighs* I'm hopeless...I should just...go back and live with my parents. All my friends are doing well in college and I'm...just being an idiot with everything. I'm wasting so much money by even being here when I don't do well. And it's not like I don't try, because I do.

I don't know... I'm moving in with friends in a few months for college. They're going to the university, I'm going to a Christian college. I wouldn't even be able to get into the university with my grades. I feel so hopeless. I don't even know what I'm doing with my life...*sighs*...I kind of want to just drop out. But that would mean living with my parents...which I can't deal with. So much crap has been going on at home. So much. With my grandma, cousin, parents, sister, my cousin's boyfriend and her boytoy. Good gosh... I don't want to deal with this stuff this summer. I don't want to go to college where I won't do well. I don't want to live with my friends if I don't have a job and not going to school... I don't want to live at home where it would cause me to be depressed.

I don't think I did well on my second final either. I tried though. I did. I studied for a while with it...And of course I probably just got a D. I'm such a waste of a life...I can't even pass tests. How pathetic. I can't get a job because I have no experience. What idiot who is 20 freaking years old has ZERO job experience?? Gosh, I'm such a moron... Story of my life. I just...want to sleep for the rest of my life... I go home tomorrow and I'm not looking forward to it at all. Last year I barely survived, I was so depressed there. Things will just be worse at home this year too.

Alright... I'm done complaining/whining/b*tching/being the most selfish person in the world on here now for complaining about my stupid problems when so many other people have it way worse off. At least I'm in college, have food, have a place to go in the summer, etc etc. I'm so selfish...