when you were nearly home

You’re back in England and its eighteen hours until i see you.

I didn’t sleep again because my body was humming and i wanted to watch star wars but we had school today, it was the first day back and these hours in between can’t go fast enough. You’ll make things straight lines again. My body was trembling all over and everything was going too fast so I left chemistry and went to an empty room. They went inside me there, I felt Their controlling energy make all my organs vibrate and they put horrible pictures in my head, in which I had to scoop out the eyes of dying men. So I stared at the same spot for a long time, because that can make me fall asleep in the daytime, and I did.

I’l be able to sleep in the night time when you’re back. I’m almost scared of the relief I’l feel when I see you.