Ok, I have a problem. Like always, but this one is huge, so... bear with me or go away. My ex-boyfriend, whom we shall call Nate, wants me back. We've been dating for a year and a half on-and-off, and everytime he calls it off, I get depressed for weeks and/or months before I bounce back. But even then I can't date anybody else without completely freaking out and getting paranoid about him. I want to go back out with him, but I'm scared he just wants me because he's bored or because he thinks I'm... easy? And NO, we've never had sex, but who knows why guys think what they do? And I can't really think of another word to describe what I'm trying to put across.
But then he also dated a girl, whom I'm gonna call Cierra, who he said he loved "since forever." Did he love her when he went out with me, and if he did, was I just a distraction? And there's another girl he told me about when we were "just friends," who he also "loves..." and I'm scared I'll be, or always have been, a replacement.
This has been going on for MONTHS, and I can't even sleep without him invading my dreams! My friends don't know what to say, I'm the only one who has actually had a relationship last longer than 6 months. And some of them don't want to hear it, they're used to coming to me with their problems, not vice versa...
So... I need help.... opinions? advice? Anything is appreciated, trust me.