The big C...

So, hello guys.
I haven't been on for a while but I know where I need to come when I wanna rant or in this case when I need some advice.

There is a 75% chance I have cancer... I'm currently having tests and stuff.
It is not fun.

My life is just one thing after another.

I'm going through a massive court case with my baby's son over who should have custody and then I go to the doctors because I have been throwing up and coughing up blood for a long time and they send me to the hospital who tell me there is a 75% chance of cancer.

I had my son yesterday and every time I look at him all I can think is Cancer, Cancer, Cancer.

What if I get told that it is in the 75%?
What if I don't get the all clear?
How can I leave him?
What should I do?

I'm trying to tell myself that I wont get cancer. I mean there is still 25% chance that it isn't cancer... although 75% is pretty high and doesn't fill me with much hope.

Why me?
I know I sound really selfish but seriously...
Sigh.

I came here expecting to ask you guys to help but now I've wrote it all, I really don't see how you could help me..

Thanks for reading.

Love you guys.