Confused

I just don't even know anymore. I mean, I gave her my all, and now she's with this guy. She keeps telling me that it's okay, that there's no competition, that when school starts back that we have a chance, but she can't promise that, what if she falls in love with this guy? Then what? I'm going to be left on the side lines while she traipse off into the sunset with him, and I'm starting to think I should just give up. I don't think it's really worth it anymore, she's not the only girl out there. I mean sure, she's the one I'd like to have, but I'm just not sure anymore. I mean, what's a hollow promise anyways. I'm starting to think that everyone's right when they say lesbian relationships blow and are super complicated.

I think I'll talk to her, tell her I need to know something, anything. And if she can't give me anything, then I'll tell her how I feel and that we should just stay friends. I mean, that's the best thing right? Mostly for me, I'm tired of feeling like crap and stuff. *sigh* Sorry for posting this, I hope no one reads it. I just wanted to get that off my chest, and why not to complete strangers.