Just venting.

Okay, venting time.

I am so fucking sick and tired of this.
I love my best friend. I love him to death. He makes me laugh, and cheers me up when I'm down.

But other days, he is a complete asshole.

Yesterday, I vented on him. I was a bit of a bitch, but he told me to fuck off. Of course, I told him not to tell me that, and we got into this thing.
So today, I apologized, and now we're fighting again.

Like, dude. What the fuck.

I'm sorry.

I'm an asshole, I know. I am going through a hard time right now and you know that.
You are going through a hard time. I know this.

We need each other. But yet we're pushing each other away.

It also really fucking sucks that I like him, like him.

I wish I didn't. I really wish I didn't.
I value our friendship so much. We have a lot in common, and there is no one I would rather hang out with.

But these feelings are seriously fucking shit up to the point that it's driving me insane.

I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO FUCKING DO FUCK. UGH.