Confusion in Canada

Sharing a small hotel room with my parents is not as fun as I thought it would be. I didn't even think it would be fun to begin with. I don't have any privacy, and even when I go outside there's too many people. I can't stand all these people. I have to be alone. I can't read without silence, I can't write without silence, and I don't want my parents to see me cry for reasons that they cannot find out about (Which I will explain later). They need to understand that when it's ten o' clock at night, I don't want to have a conversation about how my day went. I want to write the story I've been neglecting for too long. I want to read An Abundance of Katherines. I want to pay attention to something other than them after we've spent an entire day doing what they want to do. Oh, that's another thing. It's not MY vacation. It's not OUR vacation. It's THEIR vacation. They do what they want, I get dragged along, and if I dont' want to do something, TOO BAD! It's family fun time! We're going to do things together as a family! These "fun" things include: Running, biking, swimming, sitting by a pool, walking on the same boring street every year, laughing at the people who buy ice cream because they will get fat, and hiking up a freakin' mountain in the full on heat of summer. I would rather be at home in my room where I don't have allergic reactions to the sun.

To explain the thing I said I was going to explain, I am in a complicated relationship. I am dating a boy who likes me very much. I have not been able to contact him in any way, shape, or form for weeks and I'm fairly certain he's been calling/texting me. I've tried, believe me, but he never actually answers. I like him very much as well, but only when I am with him in person. If not, I think he's one of the stupidest/most annoying people I've ever met. I do not know why, but I know it is not because I think he's "cute". We also have absolutely nothing in common. Anyway, then there's this other boy. He and I enjoy the same things, and I do find him quite attractive. I have liked him for longer than I have known my boyfriend, but I'm fairly certain that he thinks I am annoying/stupid. He's extremely smart and quite philosophical. I'm torn, and extremely so (To Natalie: I am aware of the fact that he can come off as an asshole who thinks he is better than everyone else. I don't really mind at all.).

In conclusion, I am extremely confused and I am in Canada.