I can do this. I can. I will.

I'm determined to be fully recovered by Christmas. No more sleepless nights, panic attacks, violence or needless tears. I'll make it happen. I don't need this negativity anymore. I think broadening my music taste and fashion sense has been a big step so far. I think when i just dressed in black jeans and band shirts constantly, I looked depressed, so I felt depressed. But dressing in brighter clothes that compliment my figure, complexion etc and listening to more upbeat music that makes me want to dance has made me feel so much better. I'm not there yet, but for the first time ever I actually feel like I can beat this.