062912 - 11:24pm.

Wanna know what's inside my head. CHAOS. That's why I call myself "Courtney Chaotic". The depression. The anxiety. The flashbacks. The mood swings. The voices. The visions. It's all in my head. That's what makes me fucked up. That, and all my negativity toward myself. I am FUCKED UP. Would you like it if I did everyone a favor and just died? But I can't. Yes, I do have people to live for. I have no hope for a better future. BECAUSE I am just so scared. I'm scared of adult responsibility. I'm scared I'll never get better. It's always this late at night when I start to drown in negative thoughts, and feel so sad. My head hurts. Will someone ever hear me out?