Rant #1

Ok so this is just me ranting away about life. I will probably do this a lot. Sorry if you dont like it.

I've been wondering about things lately. Did life ever make sense? It seems like nothing is making sense and I dont know if it ever did to begin with. I cant remember the last tune life actually made sense. It scares me really. Like we're all going through life doing whatever, being happy or at least pretending, having fun, making friends, etc. But what's it all for? Did any of it makes sense? All the things racing through my mind confuse me in such a way that I dont even know anything anymore. I have so much to figure out, so much, about myself, to learn and understand. It's all so chaotic and with the nonsense going around me I dont even know if it's possible to make sense of any of it. Everything is upside down and turned around and nothing makes sense.
Its like life is just looking for ways to make you not know what's happening. For you to feel lost and confused. Its like nothing is supposed to make sense anymore. Im not really sure what to say anymore. Life is just like a whole mess of craziness. Life is just a whole mess of things that dont make any sense and Im so wanting it to make sense. But it just doesnt! Gahh why is life so crazy and I just dont know what to do about it