doo doo doo doo.

as always, my spelling and grammar sucks, there is profanity, and this is just a general rambling of things on my mind right now. dont judge me.

oh dear.
things are wierd right now.
basically, my 2 best friends like eachother, right? only the guys kinda a flirt and i cant really tell if he's serious, and the girl hasnt actually admitted to liking him.
its really wierd though, because we usually just hang out at eachothers houses, and theyre always flirting, and i feel kinda like i should just leave them to it, and it really sucks.

its depressing because i can tell he wants to make a move, but he told me the other day he wont because he knows it would be awkward for me to hang out with them while theyre going out. UGH. i feel like im standing in thier way, and i dont want to because i feel like a complete bitch.

i know i sound like i am a bitch, but i dont want to lose either of them, and also, if they got together and split up it would be awakward for em to pick sides, because i love them both to bits.
why cant things just permanently stay as they bloody were?!

oh yeah, and English A Level Results Day is in less than 3 weeks and i am shitting myself. i have a really really bad gut feeling that i havent done well enough to get into Uni, and that literally ruins my whole life. I hate how everything rests on that tiny moment in time right now. :/

so yeah, life sucks.
cheer me up? (: