Not sure what I'm even doing right now.

I feel like I don't know what I'm even doing here. Every day is a shit day.

The people that are supposed to be there for me and love me unconditionally aren't doing a thing other than tell me to "Cheer the fuck up". Thanks, 'cause I wasn't already trying that right?

No help at all.

I wanted to delete my story today and really just give up on writing because my family thinks I don't let them read it because it's shit and I should just stop writing and do something productive with my life.

There is no winning with these people. I graduated a year early but no one is pleased, I try to be nice and they think I want something. I have all these dark thoughts in my head and I don't to be here; they believe I just want attention.

I don't know when things are suppose to go right again. I do try to make them right, but after being pushed to the ground your entire life you sometimes just don't want to get up. I want the easy way out right now, some people may be hurt after but then again everyone pays attention when you're no longer around.

I just don't know.

~Entry #11