I don't even know why I'm so obsessed with losing weight. I'm hardly eating and I know my parent's are worried, they're force feeding me now. But I can't help it, it's like every time I come to face with food I just hear the words fat, tubby, and ugly in my mind. Every night I cry myself to sleep because of the amount of food I ate, the amount of calories I consumed. Everything I eat I have to puke it up, and then burn the extra calories because I feel like I need to. I torture myself with pictures of pretty skinny girls with thigh gaps miles long and bones popping from their skin.
Every day my goal weigh increases, from 100 to 90 and now 80. I'm seriously going insane. And I just don't know what to do anymore.
It took over my life.
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