A Year Ago

I'm sitting here at 6:48am thinking about how a year ago everything was different. To a person who barely knows me, they might think nothing has changed, but it has - drastically.

A year ago I was still cutting myself on a weekly basis. A year ago I thought I wasn't going to get better. A year ago I had a 4 month old niece who wouldn't even let me hold her. A year ago, I still had Sarah.

Sarah, it's been almost 11 months since Sarah passed away. She was 14 years old, she never even got to live. She never got her drivers license, or to meet her idols.

In the 11 months since I was told that Sarah passed away, I've met our idols - All Time Low two or three times. The first time was about a week after she died, so I couldn't say much. The last time was three weeks ago at Warped. I couldn't say anything. I wrote Alex a letter, explaining it all to him. If he actually read it, I don't know, but thouse 4-5 minutes with them meant a lot to me.

Okay I'm done rambling on about how much I miss my best friend and how much things have changed bye.