overthinking things again

Ah, overthinking sucks.

You know how in my story, TDI, Sean's all 'I dont like to be left alone with my thoughts because I think too much and remember shitty stuff'? Yeah well that's literally me. I think things through too much and get myself really worked up and then I end up like, having some sort of anxiety attack and I forget how to breathe and stuff and it sucks.

Yes.

And I keep seeing how talented everyone is and you're all good at writing and/or art and you're all pretty and funny and awesome and I can't look at anything I create because I see how shit it all is and I can't look in the mirror or at photos of me because I just see all the flaws and ugh, my mum thinks I need to see a psychiatrist because of it, she was looking at books on how to fix low self esteem today at the Library and I was like ¬_¬ And just, ugh, I can't draw, I can't play guitar, I can't play violin, I can't write, I look like shit, I'm annoying, I'm loud, I make offensive jokes when I'm hyper and I get annoyed at everyone so easily and just argh, Sorry, I just need to let this out somewhere.

Is this 200 words?

It better be, if Mibba deletes this I'll shoot, like, a duck or something. And I like ducks, they're cute.

DONT MAKE ME HURT THE DUCKIES.

Yeah I'm gonna go and lurk on tumblr, spamming my black and white blog with depressing posts.

xx