Confessions

In the mood to be honest.

-I laugh all the time, but most of the time it's because I have no idea what to say or how to respond. I also laugh just because it's easier than showing my real feelings.

-I worry way too much about what people think about me and what they would say about me. It verges on obsessive.

-Social situations scare the living crap out of me. I hate being in large crowds of people, especially when I don't know anyone else there.

-I'm always anxious.

-I don't think I'll ever have a boyfriend or get married because I'm not pretty enough.

-I lie about myself to seem cooler to other people.

-I have a really big heart, and all I want to do is make and see others happy. This is a positive and negative thing.

-I wish I was a social butterfly. I would kill to be but I'm not. I'm really shy, quiet, and reserved.

-I would definitely consider myself fat, but I don't have the determination to do anything about it.

-I don't make friends every easily.

-I'm a very jealous person, and I always want what other people have. I'm never satisfied with what I have, even though I know I'm truly blessed.

-I'm awkward, weird, strange, funny, and lazy.

-I consider myself a Christian because I believe in God, however, I'm not sure if I believe in all the teachings in the Bible. I also believe there are other ways to reach Heaven.

-I don't like my body at all.

-I never know what to say to people, and I never know how to act around others.

-I always feel like people are judging me based off my weight, clothes, and hair.

-I've never had a serious crush or boyfriend, and I'm eighteen.

-I'm not sure if I could call anyone my true best friend.

-I don't know where I want my future to go.

-I'm way too passive aggressive. I never stand up for myself or the things that I believe in.

-If I could be someone else with a different personality and I body I would.

Fin.