Anger vs. Sadness and Thoughts on My Sociopathic Potential

What is anger? “a strong feeling of displeasure and belligerence aroused by a wrong;”? Or is it more? It’s difficult to really define human emotions. What if I have not been wronged? That would deem the definition incorrect. Personally, anger can also be a coping mechanism. It replaces sadness that I could not otherwise handle. When I’m angry I’m confident, strong, courageous even. My self esteem is at it’s highest. If there’s a task in front of me, there’s no stopping me from doing it. I’m completely focused.
Sadness on the other hand, is quite the opposite. When I’m feeling sad, my self esteem is at it’s lowest, I’m weak, insecure and tired. My focus is almost zero and I’m lacking motivation. I get absolutely nothing done. Sadness is inconvenient. All I want to do is cry all of my problems out. Crying is a waste of time and energy.
The thing about anger is (personally not the case in everyone) it can lead to a sociopathic lifestyle. Anger causes me to close everything and build up walls to prevent getting hurt. When those walls are up, it is, for some reason, a cause for me feeling no remorse for anything. When I’m angry, I don’t care about who I hurt to get what I want. (Now hear me out, I don’t hurt people because I understand the issues that will arise and I don’t want to get involved in unnecessary problems. And I don’t want people to hate me). I can be extremely manipulative (even when I’m not angry but the trait is magnified when I’m angry) and I am good at it too. (I have in the past shown this behavior but examples will not be provided because I wish not to be disliked by my audience.)
My strength in this is my way of thinking. I may not seem like one who thinks things through, but I do majority of the time. When I am in this sociopathic state of mind, I also remember how much fun it is to actually experience human emotions. Fear, love, happiness. Yes, happiness is difficult to achieve and love is a challenge to find but when acquired, these emotions are quite satisfying. And the fact that it’s difficult for me to gain these emotions makes them more satisfying when I get a chance to feel them.