update on life.

it's 9:10 PM. i've got a sleepy kitten curled up on my lap. his name is axel, and he's the love of my life. and i know what you're thinking-crazy cat lady-but no. he's my first kitten that i have to take care of on my own. i have applied for jobs to earn money to take care of him. he's a little ginger cat with beautiful blue eyes. he likes wrestling with my dog and hiding under the couch.

i'll be sixteen in about a week. we're taking a trip up to new york city for my birthday..and we get to do whatever i want.

i have straight a's. no grade is below a 93.

life is a little complicated. i'm discovering some long-buried hatred for my father and myself. i've realized i've lost who i am. i wish i would've listened to my best friend when she told me this. i lost my way because i was so focused on keeping other relationships in good condition, that i changed to make those people happy. that's not what i wanna be. i've decided to try and find out who-or what-i was.

until then..

ciao.