Just rant

A lot of times I wish my mother didn't care about me. I wish she didn't pay attention to what I wore or how I do my makeup I want a normal mom who loves me as a person but, is a complete workaholic.
I hate everything. I hate school. I hate my parents. I hate my life. Why do I get the feeling nobody gets me? That nobody understands how I try so fucking hard but, don't get shit in return? I have no fucking idea which is why I'm writing this. Sometimes I just pray for a way to get out of this. And I cried. I cried harder than I had cried in MONTHS. But, I still did it perfectly. That's one thing you never forget, is how to cry. But, off topic, what the FUCK does it take to get somebody to realize how much you CARE? How much you CRAVE when they look, talk or even brush their arm on you. I feel that I've shown every sign known to human. But nobody will ever understand how it feels to be so unloved by even your own family.

Just had to rant about it.