No one`s really happy anyway,it`s not human.

This week has been a depressing week. From anxiety attacks to depression to losing friends to increasing medication and skipping school to sudcides...Yes more sudcide. It borught me back memories of last September with Tyler's death. There was four sudcides in PA. Two were in my friend's school. There was one showed on FOX news. They were watching a car cash and it ended in sudcide. Now I heard one in my school. A kid I met once who helped out with the musicals. It's just really upsetting. What I am realizing as I grow older, we're never happy.

No matter what we do, there always something giving us an upset. It's our weak spot. It hurts us and brings us down. Then there are people like me who have way too many and have to take medication. It causes anxiety and depression. It causes cutting. Why do people like me have or had cut? Because to feel alive. The blood is a syntom of life at that time. Sometimes that doesn't work. People need to escape and feel free. What happens then? Sudcide.

Here's what I have to say. Since this happens more often because of econmey and more stuff, it's not worth it. You will find happiness in something. For me, it's writing. I place all my venting problems. I make a fictional or a fanfiction person and make them myself. Another is sketching. You're turning into something beautiful on a sheet. It makes me the happiness seeing the greatest reaction. One other thing is performing and writing songs. I want to be a performer or in a band. One of my other things is being surround by the right people. I am being the happiest i am now because (not just my meds being changed) but I have this one friend who makes sure I am okay and another one who intastly cheers me up because he has a crush on me...and i have one bac. Anyway, just don't sit around and mope is my advice. Even if you do something like fencing making happy, do it. If writing a story makes you ahppy, do it! Whatever you want do it! Just don't hurt yourself

Make yourself happy not upset!

Quote by Billie Joe Armstrong, lead singer of Green Day