Honestly. It's 9:35 and I'm completely alone in this house. I hate this feeling that just takes over me and I can't fight it anymore. I'm so tired, so exhausted of this nameless emotion.
I feel abandoned, unwanted, and worthless. I just need to know everything is okay. I promise that to everyone, but no one can promise it to me.
I can't sleep. I haven't slept in three days. I feel like I'm going absolutely insane and I don't want to be insane and I don't want to go to therapy or get help or anything.
I just want to be normal and happy and not be such a letdown.
Hell, I don't want to be disappointed by others anymore. That's what happened.
He happened and I'm suddenly changed, suddenly unhappy with everything and everyone. Levi you shit head. I hate you so much, I hate that I care about you and how you treat me now and I hate that I miss you.
I just wish I could have taken all those memories back so I could be happy and not crying over something so small on a Saturday night.
I need a getaway, but that would just lead me back to you. And I can't go back to you anymore.
I am different and I don't like this.
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