This time I'm mistaken, for handing you a heart worth breaking.

God. Where do I start. My friend told me to write, because maybe itd make me feel better? So I'll start from the beginning. I was dating this amazing guy. I thought he was perfect.. I still do. We had so much in common, we are so awkward. Everything about him just made me smile. Recently, we've been in bad moods with each other. And today, he said we needed a break. But that's not what hurt the most. I love him. God I love him. So what hurt the most is when he said "I'm just trying to fix us from being so damn unhappy with each other" . I didn't know I make him so damn unhappy.. Because everything about him still made me happy, even when we were fighting. His smile could fix my day inna second. He was so perfect for me.. But I make him so damn unhappy. So the past few days just ruined 9 months of happiness. And what's terrible is, I wouldn't trade a second of it, even if I knew itd turn out this way. Because all I want for him
Is happiness. And if I can't give it to, i pray he finds someone who can. Id much rather me be hurt by this than him. Because i love him, and if you love someone, you have to do what's best for them , even when it breaks your heart. But this feeling, is the worst. But to anyone who will read this, every second i spent with him was the happiest of my life. I wouldn't trade them for anything. Never be afraid to love because you think you'll get Hurt. It's worth it in the end.
-Bee <\3
October 14th, 2012 at 03:46am