My weekend so far :)

I only like posting blogs about my weekends if I'm honest because nothing else interesting goes on anyway.
Last night I had Josh over, and I see him every weekend now (although honestly, it's still difficult having to wait a whole week) but this was the first one where it was actually just me and him and it was so nice because we didn't have to be secretive about our 'relationship' or keep distance or anything. It was really nice. Except I forgot his hug when he turned up and I feel kinda bad about that but he was over an hour late which he also felt bad about so it evened out I think.
To be honest I was so tired and stoned I can't remember much of last night except putting films on and only watching like a quarter of each one. I don't even remember falling asleep. I just know I fell asleep with him cuddling me so it's all good.
Then this morning I woke up at like 9am and I have no idea why but I always wake up early when I'm with him. Which usually I'd say is a good thing because that's weird for me but we don't get to sleep until late so then I end up being really tired during the day. But yeah I couldn't sleep properly after I woke up so kept him awake aswell haha and he had a cute little quiff thing going on :)
Then I showered and everything and we made pancakes which is just the best breakfast ever. Then went back to my room to play some vinyl and cuddle. And then he had to leave, which was shit. I don't know if anyone else did this when they were really little but when I didn't want to be left on my own I would grab onto their ankle and I wouldn't let go even if it meant getting dragged along the floor and I was a bit like that when he had to leave. Not in a literal sense, that would just be bizarre... but you get the jist of what I mean. I just knew that as soon as he left I would be alone and missing him again.
I don't really know what we are, like I don't know where I stand with him. We're not just friends, clearly. But we're not boyfriend/girlfriend either. It's just awkwardly in between where we're like seeing eachother but everything's a bit unclear and it makes me feel uncomfortable. I don't know how single or not single I am and that bothers me a bit.
I just hope he doesn't get bored of me. That tends to happen.

I have no plans for tonight which is pretty shit. I really want to go cinema but I have no one to go with! I asked my mate Lloyd seeing as he's local and loves going cinema lately but he's ill which is annoying. Haven't seen him in ages either - I think he thinks I fancy him. I might casually slip it into conversation that I'm seeing someone. That should work.

I really should be writing my essays instead of a blog. I lost all my fucking essay and homework from my memory stick so have to do it all again. Bollocks.
I'm getting to work now.