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Sometimes I wish I were dead. I feel so lonely. I just don’t know what to do anymore. Drop out? Go to the alternative school? I just don’t know. I don’t want to catch up that’s my freaking problem. I don’t want to put forth the effort because right now I am tired. I am so tired. I want to drop out after my birthday and get a job. Any job.

Maybe God doesn’t want me in school. He’s put forth bullies, feeling suicidal, and he’s made my life so hard already. How am I supposed to deal with school and that other shit? I’m so confused right now.