Read it or not... I don't care.

So I made it nearly 8 months without cutting. Buuuut of course I fucking screwed up again. I don't even know what happened. I felt like crap. I don't know. It's not that bad, though. The cuts, I mean. It was only like a dozen, and they weren't even deep. Just enough to draw blood. This was yesterday. I almost did it again today, but my razor is kinda dull. I did get some new ones though, from one of my shaving razors(unused of course). But it took like foreverrrr to take apart, and by the time I got them out, I didn't feel as bad. So there's that. I think I'm okay now. Not really. But for the time being at least. It just fucking sucks feeling like this. fghjkytk,l.rfc vijnwsdxychuebkgtfvhhbrfdopksdebjhrfkjljkrekjlkewr. FUCK. gahhhh bfbkljnhfdhndf;l

Okay. I'm good. -_- I wasn't supposed to feel like this anymore. Things were supposed to be better when I got home. I was fine. Up until now. This shit sucks. So bad. Sooooo fucking bad.

I'm not trying to sound like a whining little bitch, but I'm just freaking out is all. Well guess I'll just go cry myself to sleep now. Jk... I couldn't cry even if I wanted to. I feel numb, but not really. Like irritated but sad and mad at the same time. I know I should be happy and I feel stupid and pathetic and guilty for feeling this way, especially when there's people out there dealing with much much worse, but I really can't help it right now. It's just how I feel. sdfgl;kf. Ok. bye now.