Lesbian Phase.. Or Is It Legit?

So, I'm pansexual. But I always have these strange phases where I'll want nothing but girls and guys completely disgust me. They can last anywhere from a few days to a year. It's crazy. I never have "straight phases" where I only want guys. So now I'm kind of questioning.. Am I really borderline lesbian in denial? I honestly have no idea. Maybe it's just a lust for girls. But either way, I'm going through one of these "phases" again, and I don't know what to do. Where I live, everyone is so conservation and there's very few girls in my school who like girls. None of them really interest me, so I'm pretty much stuck and don't know what to do. I'm kind of weary about long distance relationships since so many of mine have ended in tragedy. But then again, a girlfriend would be the best thing in the world right now. Just someone to share all my secrets with and be cute with and be able to call mine, y'know? So I'm posed with this question.. Is a girlfriend worth the long distance? And if she is, then where would I even go about finding the right girl? ~