Growing Up

I think I'm growing up. I've finally gotten so disappointed in the lack of returned emails and job applications that I'm down to my last 5% of hope that I'll actually find something in sports that I'll like to do. Maybe that's part of growing up that realizing your dreams aren't going to come true anytime soon and might not ever happen. I think I'm just going to focus on getting a substitute teaching certificate and do that for awhile and continue volunteer coaching. I wish I could just coach sports. I would be happy going from basketball to baseball and then having short breaks in between games. If only the world worked like that. I feel like I'm literally stuck. I don't want to live in the same town I grew up in for the rest of my life but at least here I have coaching opportunities to keep me sane. I also couldn't afford to move anywhere right now and still pay off loans. Life just sucks right now. Blink 182 was right. Nobody loves you when you're 23. Nobody even wants to help you out either.