Thanksgiving

What is it about holidays that make family's explode? I have 5 siblings four are not around one is in and out of the house. I'm trapped and I'm the one getting the main blows.

My mother and I are not close. It's still a teenager "my mom don't get me" dynamic in my house. My dad is my friend we can talk we aren't close. But we can be.

The last month my mother and I have been at each others throats she's a bitch and I'm a burden a mistake. She makes me feel that way. Everything I do is wrong.

So today she's cooking a meal for 5 people. And I'm cleaning. And things seem to go good up til the point that she starts yelling. Then she makes sideways comments and making me feel like I'm a terrible bitch so I call her out on it. Now we can't be in the same room and frankly I'm not hungry any more. But we have to eat together.

I'm the worst daughter on earth. I'm a terrible human being. I'm the one mistake. And she wonders why I'm depressed. She wonders why I cut and burn and want to die. It's because of things like this. It's because I'm made to feel like this. I'm an awful daughter. So yeah I hate holidays.
November 22nd, 2012 at 11:39pm