Friends and Love

I need new friends. Like I think I only have a handful that I actually never get annoyed with. I haven’t seen a good portion of my friends since graduation and the only ones I see are those who go to school with me. I keep trying to hang out with my friends from high school, but they don’t even have the decency to say no. Then they go and say, “I miss you! We never get to see each other.” BITCH! I’ve been tryin’ and y’all just blow me off. It’s not like these people have legit excuses like my partner in crime does (she goes to a different college and then works and she’s on a scholarship so she HAS to study a lot) they have no jobs and don’t go to school.

Now onto something that may or may not make me sound desperate/needy. I need a lover. The only time I hear the words “I love you” are with my ex on rare occasions and a few times from a few of my friends and I honestly think if I just heard it on a regular basis, my depression wouldn’t be so severe to the point that I push people away. People don’t understand how much that phrase clears away anyone’s depression. Plus, I just want to be held and to cuddle with someone. I wish one of the girls that flirt with me would just take a serious interest -_-