Frustrated

I'm so frustrated right now that's it's ridiculous. I'm 19 and I'm not in school and I have no idea what I

even want to go to school for. The other problem is even if I knew what to go for I don't have money to

pay for things because even though my dad has money I was effectively cut out of his life by his wife.

I'm stuck at a mind less job that I can't stand and I don't even have my license. I have no real life to

speak of and don't do much of anything and I have no real motivation to because I feel like there's no

real point. I'm trying to get back to writing again because it's something I used to enjoy more than

anything. I still love to write it just feels different some how. I have no friends to talk to and my parents

have both literally abandoned me at different times so I don't have any actual family to talk to either. I

miss my brother terribly but they live with my dad and I'm not allowed over his house because his new

wife doesn't like me and basically cut me out of my dads and brothers lives. I have my boyfriend to talk

to sometimes but he doesn't always understand and he gets frustrated with me and it causes fights. I'm

glad to be living with him but it's lonely only having him to talk to and not even being able to fully talk

to him openly about everything. I feel bad because I know i get depressed and mope around

sometimes but it's not something I can help. I'm also constantly stressed out about money because I

only make 7.58 an hour and it's only a part time job. I'm frustrated and I feel like a failure and a bad girlfriend.