I can't always be there

Im a person who people look for everyday. I hear I'm a person to get along with and I make everyone's day. The problem is no one is here to make my day not that it matters but I need some light to be shone on me to. I'm used to making others feel like someone is there for them and I am there savior in a way. I can't always stay strong though I cry , I get frustrated , I get angry , I want I die sometimes, but I keep it together. I hate seeing people struggling through their emotions trust me I've been there I saved myself (MCR also) but I can't always be there for you. I'm a human also not an angel I can die I will get wounds. I'm a human. I look in the mirror hating myself but end up choosing a differen route. My friend always wants to die and I try and try and try to tell her No! But no one listens to me. She hurts me more and more and I gave up on her thats how people treat me. They will try to destroy but I am so stubborn I don't give up until its necessary. I'm a human please remember that.