I'm so tired

I know that it's just high school, and people have gone through shit way worse than what I am. But the thing is, it's not even a person or a group of people. I could handle getting bullied, or harassed. I just can't live up to the pressure. I feel stupid in every class, and the tests...fuck the tests...I just feel like I am drowning in this sea of despair. I want to be home schooled, that way I can focus and do it right.

My english teacher is my worst enemy. She doesn't hate me, or live to make my life miserable. I just can't do her class. her expectations are so high...I just can't live up to it. Maybe that's the problem. people expect so fucking much from you, and you just can't do it. I can't focus, I can't do anything. My parents don't care, but what they don't realize is every day at school I'm moments away from a total fucking breakdown.

I don't know what I am doing anymore. I just can't....I can't.